3. How would you describe your time on the inside?
by Alexander Greenberg
I knew not to trust anyone.
I slept on my side
arms cradling
everything I owned
like a sail full of wind.
Under my head,
the metal bucket
I used to clean myself.
Jars of Vaseline
tucked behind each knee.
The mouthless threats of men
scraping their nails against
the bars of my cell at night
on their way
to the bathroom
and back.
I turned eighteen in prison.
My body became its own
ultimatum.
I roughed up my skin
against the bed post’s sandpaper frame
& dry-washed my eyes
under the septic light
of an open wound.
I tried not to talk to
my mother that month
to buy my body time
to bury the memories of itself
that uncorked
a pit
in my stomach
every morning I woke up.
I hollowed out childhood
into a summer of scars,
dug & dug
until all that was left
of my body was its animal
& the damned rumor of a boy.
Their requests for
One More Week
swiveling
back & forth
on the head of a pin
like a bluff
their pleas for time
drying up mine.
On the seventh night
of an empty stomach
I caved & called my mother.
Behind her voice,
I could make out the jingle
of an ice cream truck
passing by our backyard.
There once was a boy
& his mother who lived here.
There once was a boy.
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